Friday, September 25, 2009 11:27 AM, CDT
“I want to start out by saying that you all mean so much to us.Â We are overwhelmed by Henry’s situation; we are also overwhelmed by the love and support of our friends, family, church and community: your thoughts, prayers, flowers, cards, dog-walkings, meals, vigils, and the list goes on.Â Thank you.
I want to be honest about how devastated we are: for now we feel more hopelessness than hope, and my own faith wavers.Â Â But Jen has already used the analogy of darkness and light — that when it’s dark enough, even small lights can be seen.Â There is grace here.”
And so begins the page at CaringBridge for our grandson, Henry Dillon First, written by his father and our son, Nathan. If you’re a long-term reader of Fragments, you know Nathan from his walk home from Maine since I have told some of those stories over the years.
You may join to follow Henry’s story; there is some solace in just knowing we are not alone.
We have come to Missouri knowing the helplessness we would feel but also knowing we must be where Henry and his parents struggle against such horribly unexpected and seemingly overwhelming challenges.
He is a beautiful baby. This makes dealing with his struggles all the more difficult.
I don’t know how little or how much to share, nor do I yet know the lessons or the growth that will come from this most tragic event in our family story. The burden on all of us is almost too much to bear. I have been proud of the courage and strength here. Our daughter drove alone from South Dakota to be here and has been a rock of a big sister. We have held together and will be here for Henry, his mom and dad and each other.
Liberties with 2 Corinthians 1…
8We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in (Missouri). We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. 9Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. 10He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, 11as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.